Saturday, 20 July 2024
[Chapter 1] "You can see now?"
heart of glass
if i were to say
that i am hurt far worse,
it would sounds like yours are nothing to mine
yet this heart of glass of ours,
will break and shatter; although for a different reason,
because the decree of feelings we feel
is not akin to one another.
and in the end of the day,
whatever has shattered will remain shattered,
and the reason it needed to occur -
does not matter.
Wednesday, 10 January 2024
truly, really.
things that made me sad today:
1. I got told off for something due to miscommunication. My true intention was pure (of course I know it's MY intention) but they assume things, so there it goes. I dislike being assumed of things I never thought of. They thought I lied because I lied about certain things, but seriously? Would I lie about things I genuinely feel about?
2. I've been craving for ayam gepuk for like, ages. Suddenly today my friends went to ayam gepuk, the very day I'm not together with them.
3. I despise being compared. Being told that my progress aren't enough compared to my mates is just... awful.
4. I also despise double standard. Bias. Am I that bad? Why do I feel like I am troubling someone who are supposed to do their job. Or is it me who acted too indifferently?
5. I realised I truly, really don't have any true friends. All my friends are either jealous of me, befriend me because I am convenient or secretly dislike me but talk to me anyways.
Ah.
Now I feel better.
Thursday, 19 October 2023
hypocrite
Saturday, 6 May 2023
the day
On the day I weep and cry,
losing all hope in life and gone,
you were there.
You were there,
giving me strength,
drive and spirit.
You were there,
assuring me to fly,
trot and run.
You were there,
All warm and smiles.
All tender and delicate.
So not only on the day
I weep and cry,
I shall remember You too,
on the day I bounce
and walk on cloud nine.
- submitted for a competition -
she said
"You have to communicate so we can work in sync," she said. She said that and ignored me when I asked the details. She said that ...
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"You have to communicate so we can work in sync," she said. She said that and ignored me when I asked the details. She said that ...
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it pains me how I am entitled to other people's expectations, when in reality I just want to live a quiet life.
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I lived every single day in hard mode. That seemed a bit farfetched, alright but is anything in life ever easy? Even the cat t...