I talk too much

It is late at night, and somehow, I started to muhasabah my own self. I must've been annoying today, am I ? I swear I talked too much today. I think everyone must've thought that I'm such an attention seeker, or a clout chaser. Oh I shouldn't say that to her ! Why did I acted like that, I must've been crazy !

All these thoughts just keep crossing in my mind, and I can't sleep at all. Why did I keep regretting everything that happens, but end up doing the same thing all over again ? I hate myself for not changing. I hate myself for being me.

But from all things, I know I shouldn't talk too much. Because words are like swords, it can kills if we sway it wrong. Just how many times I messed up just because of how talkative I am ? 

Maybe it's time for a change. Though changing is hard, I hope I can.